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Let Me Be Childish.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
dont you think that dreams are so hard to catch?
it's still so far no matter how i see it.
perhaps i lack intelligence, wisdom, initiative, diligence..
with just interest, i wont be able to reach it.
of course, what else do you think?
i am still in my own world.
yes, i am in love with fantasy. so much so much.
still unsure of what the future holds for me, yeah.
it's up to me to find out, what's out there.
but i am about to fall into a depression.
what else can i do?
move on, girl.
it's going to be a long journey for us.
even though you just wanna do what you like,
and do what you just ought to do,
people have to follow the system that is created in your society.
this is how it works.
you're no exceptional.
you reap what you sow, it's a rule.
there must be a balance in this world.
yin, yang. men, women. life, death. black, white. input, output.
even the stoichiometric chemical equations.
maybe this place couldnt fulfil my dreams.

once i was given an opportunity, i didnt cherish it.
i lost it.
i knew why it happened.
it's me. it's my fault. i was the only who knew the reason.
very sad, i know. i couldnt blame anyone else.
maybe at that time, i took it for granted.
that's why.
a very valuable lesson learnt.

i wish to live.
but yet i hope that the world would come to an end.
soon.
@ 7:01 PM